Individual's Shadow

2010-02-12T21:01:00.000-08:00

Meet Clavy.

He's the LOVE of my LIFE (for now).

I have arranged a date with him this Valentines. :)

Long time no see, Blogger.

I've just recently moved to Tumblr

Hong Kong Tra la la~ DAY 1

2009-03-24T15:57:00.000-07:00

Been there for 3 days and 2 nights with Yan-Yan; our first trip together outside the country. Bi-chan would have been with us if he didn't forget that he needs a passport to get out of the country. Too bad. Pero okay lang, Lianne would have become a third wheel, most of the chairs kasi pangdalawahan lang.

Sobrang daming experience! Panalo lalo na si Yan-Yan:
1. When we arrived at Hongkong International Airport, sinira ng Hongkong Express ang Luggage niya. HAHA. We want to complain sana and asked for Airline Staff pero they keep on referring us to the wrong persons for 3 times. Hanggang sa huli, sinabihan na lang kami na:

Chinese Hottie Hongkong Airport Staff: Please just complain at the website.
US: WHAT?!! $$#%@%@!%!#%%
Xan-Xan: Tara na, we'll be late. We need to find Holiday tours or else maiiwan tayo dito!
Yan-Yan: Wala ng gulong ang luggage ko! Mukha akong Tanga!

Then we went to the Holiday Tour counter A11. We met our tour guide Dennis Wong. Akala namin hot siya, pero di. Tandaers na. Unlike kila Patricia and Astrud, bata ang tou guide nila. There, we were given all the things we should have like the vouchers, mcdo coupons etc. Ang compulsary trip lang namin ay iyong HongKong island tour. May ini-offer samin na Hongkong Night tour at Victoria Peak saka Ocean Park Trip. We decided na wag na lang mag-avail and discover Hongkong on our own.

Oh by the way, napakascrunchy ng mga tao dun especially sa Immigration. Hindi sila warm unlike us Filipinos. They don't smile that often! Mga flight stewardess lang ata marunong! Tsk.

Stayed at BP International Hotel, Austin Street, Kowloon Part of Hongkong. Okay naman ang reception. They even gave us tips where to exchange money, nearest MTR station (MRT). Nakakainis lang at nakalimutan nila ituro kung saan dapat kumain! Damn. We walked around for almost 2 hours. We ended up eating sa tapat ng hotel. Ang mahal grabe. Their noodles cost $26 then a can of sprite costs $15!

After eating, we went back to the hotel so get some rest. We slept for almost two hours. At dahil nanghinayang kami na matutulog lang kami sa hongkong, we decided to go to the night market. Daming tourist dun! Mostly Caucasians. Di namin kami bibili ng kahit ano since di kami nagpunta ng hongkong to shop, so tingin-tingin lang kami. HAHA. Then may nakita kaming street na halos sex toys ang tinda. Tapos sa gilid pa siya ng isang temple! Weird sobra. Dami ding PDA. French kissing, butt touching etc sa paligid. Moslty, teens iyong nag-pPDA. Wala silang pakialam if someone's watching them. Then we went to the temple and since it is already 10 pm ata, sarado na. May nakakatakot na part kasi may gang ata. Men with super daming tattoo with a girl na ang skimpy ng damit. After few picture -taking, umalis kami.
Puro lakad ang ginawa namin until we reached the Jade Market. Sarado na din. We will visit na lang tomorrow because Mom wants us to buy her one.

Pag-uwi, nadaanan namin iyong Yau Mai Tei market na medyo malinis. We've seen 2 policemen also na may kasamang k9.

Then nadaanan din namin iyong parang medyo red light district nila. Daming hotgirls na nakapost sa mga doors and of course, daming guys outside.

finally, we were back at the hotel. :D

Absences

2009-03-03T00:11:00.000-08:00

Gosh, I have to be serious na with my studies. This is my worst semester talaga. I failed my first exam in 162: 51/100. Tapos super dami ko ng absences almost lahat ng subjects ko (except 162). Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako biglang tinamad mag-aral.

JS Studies = 1
Anthro = 3
Psych 155 = 4 (Major pa siya. Tsk)
Chinese 10-11 = 5 and counting.

Super di na ako nag-aaral ng mabuti. I tend to procastinate things tapos mag-cracram ako. Rarr. Kanina di ako pumasok ng JS and Anthro sa sobrang puyat sa pag-cram ng film review sa psych 155 na irerevise ko pa. Kaasar. I should study Chinese since may exam tomorrow pero tinatamad pa ako.

I hate my schedule pa. Lesson learned: di na ako kukuha ng 5:30-7:00 pm na class! Never ever!

Hay. 1 month na lang to go para bumawi. O_o

Forgive. But I won't forget.

2009-03-01T14:56:00.000-08:00

Well, kakauwi ko lang from "there". *sigh*.. I am really tired, of everything. I can really feel death's presence right now. Right here beside me. Chasing me everyday. Sadly, he still don't heed my deathwishes.

Anyway, I'm completely lost right now. Everything seems to be blurry and confusing. Wala lang. Sobrang nakakapagod na. Sobrang sakit na nang katawan ko, nang utak ko, nang mata ko, nang dibdib ko, nang lahat. Sobrang sawa na'ko sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. Lagi na lang ako yung kawawa sa huli. Do I deserve this? Hay..

Hindi ako makapaniwala na umiyak ako sa van kanina pauwi. Buti na lang madilim. Wala sigurong nakakita kasi nagkukunwaring tulog ako. Wala lang. Kahit anong pigil ko sa sarili ko, talagang lumalabas eh. Mahal na mahal ko kasi siya. Hanggang sa huli, minahal ko siya. Hanggang sa huli nagbigay pa din ako ng pagkakataon para maipagpatuloy namin. Hanggang sa huli iniiyakan ko pa din siya. Hanggang sa huli, nagawa ko pa din siya patawarin. Kaso sa huli naawa na'ko sa sarili ko. Sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa kanya, nakalimutan ko na alagaan sarili ko. Hindi na'ko nakakakain, nakakatulog, at nakakapag-aral ng maayos. Hindi na'ko nakakapagenjoy sa kahit na anong bagay dahil sa tuwing may gagawin ako ay naiisip ko siya at bigla nanaman akong nalulungkot. Sobrang dami na palang naaapektuhan. Masyado ko siyang minahal sapagkat umaasa ako na balang araw ay magagawa na din niya ako pahalagahan. Kaso hindi. Sobrang hindi ko na kinaya. I tortured myself so badly. Pero hindi ako nagsisisi at nakilala ko siya. Marami naman akong natutunan sa kanya. Sumaya din ako. Akala ko nga kami na.

Anyway, puputulin ko muna dito. Hindi ko kasi mapigilan na hindi maiyak habang sinusulat ito. Pero nakakagaan din pala talaga ng loob kapag nilalabas sa ganitong paraan. Madami akong narerealize.

I also remembered this line of Celine from Star Ocean: "Do what you need to do but I don't think it'll be of much worth in the end.". I forgot what exactly the last part is but it was something like that.

Goodnight.

You didn't give me the chancew of saving everything. What you did was an emotional blackmail - gusto mong habulin kita within 30 minutes. But you know na may trabaho ako at kapag iniwan ko iyon, I can be reprimanded or even be fired by the boss. I'm a new in the company that's why I should set a good impression. I invited you to watch me working. I begged for your hug. I asked you to please stay, na sana tayo pa.

Siguro nga masyado pa akong busy - academics, organization, work and you. I just don't understand why you keep on thinking things which are not true in the first place. You don't fully trust me that I am very loyal to you.

Well. This is life.
Akala ko rin naman tayo na. Pero you chose to break our relationship. You are tired, very tired and so I am pero at the back of my mind, kaya naman.

I wish you happiness.
I will continue on loving you from a distance.

You will always be my hubby and I will be your wifey, forever.

Repost: Maroon 5 at mga gusto.

2009-02-24T00:02:00.000-08:00

Maroon 5 at mga gusto.

Feb 4, '08 8:15 AM
for everyone

Gusto ko ng Maroon Five Concert Ticket. Gusto kong marinig na kinakanta nila yung Infatuation saka yung It's Better That We Break.

Kahit yung sa General Admission na ticket lang. Kahit ulo na lang nila ang makikita ko.

Kaso sold-out na talaga. Wala na akong pag-asa

Bakit kasi mahal ang ticket ng Maroon 5? Bakit kay Ne-Yo ang mura? Bakit???

Hay, papakinggan ko na lamang sila sa mp3 ni Lianne.

Speaking of mp3, I miss my mp3. Nasira kasi due to my stupidity. Nahulog sa cr. Alangan namang pulutin ko pa so tinapon ko na.

Sayang talaga. THough its not an Ipod, mahal ko talaga yun. T_T

R.I.P. my black mp3.

Gusto ko tuloy ng ipod. Hahaha.

Pero okay na rin ang zen.

Pero bibili muna ako ng bagong fone, kahit na masakit sa damdamin na magkakalayo na kami ng Sony Ericson Z520i ko. Sira na kasi ang lcd.

Samsung naman ang bibilhin ko.

Repost: Endless Fieldwork!

2009-02-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

Endless Fieldwork.

Sep 9, '08 11:52 AM
for everyone

I'm dying. Psych 118, Psych 108, Socio 101 ----> all of these do require fieldwork!
Tapos one month to go na lang, tsk. Paano ko sila pagsisiksikin sa schedule ko?

Andyan pa ang field trip sa geog 1 na kun hindi lang nagagalit si mama ay hindi talaga ako sasama. Mas enthusiastic pa ang nanay na sumama ang anak kaysa ang anak na mismong sasama. Sayang yung two days ko. Tsk. Tapos 8 pm na balik ko ng Monday then may 7 am class ako ng morning? Gosh?! Plakda ako for sure sa kama. >.<

Psych 118's such a hell. Grabe. Sana matapos ko na ang observation within this week. Every dismissal pupuntahan ko talaga para mameet ko na iyong 6 hours na quota for observation. Pati rin sana interview matapos ko na and questionnaire din!

This coming thursday naman ay orientation sa Eduk Inc for lingkod aral. Hay, kala ko easy easy lang, haggard din pala. Tsk. We need to organize a Library Orientation Seminar for public grade school kids na malapit sa Aklatang Pambata. Hawhaw. Buti may letter na at concept paper. Then sa Saturday, orientation with Ms. Karen Panol kung paano niya kami bibigyan ng credit saka yung criteria ng evalutation sa amin. Huhuhu. 15 hours?! Tsk. Paano ko kaya to mamemeet?

Nawalan tuloy ng date ang socio 101 ko. Morning sana kami pupunta naman ng eat bulaga/wowowee pero dahil sa 108, reskeeeeeeed! Di naman pwede ng Monday dahil nga field trip. Deadline na ng rrl at method ng paper. Buti tapos na rrl. Method na lang saka yung conceptual framework.

Kaya ayun, sa tingin niyo ba dapat pa akong sumama ng field trip sa geog? Mauuno ko pa ba siya kahit hindi ako sumama?

>.<

Repost: Totally Embarassing!

2009-02-23T23:27:00.000-08:00

Totally Embarrasing!

Jun 13, '08 6:11 AM
for everyone

Tsk Tsk. Nakakahiya talaga.

Kasi naman, nasigawan ako sa main lib nung nagpapavalidate nung ID. Kasi nga di ba putol yung ID ko. Tapos andaming taooooooooo. Ok lang sanaaaaaaaaa ehhhhhhhh. Pero andaming taoooooooo. Super N mode tuloy ako. Tsk Tsk

Ganito yung nangyari.

So binigay ko yung ID ko. Tapos sabi niya tumabi daw muna ako. Antayin na lang na tawagin yung name ko since maraming nakapila.

Tapos ayun na nga, tinawag ang pangalan ko.

Ms. Librarian: Sino si Roxanne Therese Delay?

Ako: Ako po. (tinaas ko pa yung kamay ko sabay lapit)

Ms. Librarian: Hindi ka ba aware na all of our computers are ADVANCE! It requires your ID to be in PERFECT SHAPE.

Ako: Ah okay po, may schedule na po ako eh. Kaso po di ba inuuna ni yung freshie.

Ms. Librarian: Magpa-ID ka muna saka ka MAGPAKITA sakin.

~ouch!

Hindi ko alam kung sadya bang malakas ang boses niya o kaya nakalunok siya ng microphone.

Tapos ung isang kupal sa likod ko, sabi ba naman. "TSK TSK"

Lahat sila nakatingin. Huhuhuhu. Super wa poise event.
Try ko kayang magmaskara kapag ipapavalidate ko na ang aking bagong ID.

Baka kasi makilala nila ako.
Or Dapat, nakamaskara na ako pag pupunta ng Main Lib. Para di nila ako makilala.

Or dapat kaya, everytime na nasa UP ako. Tsk tsk.

Giiiiiiiiiiiingggggggggg! Peram ng maskara. Lol.

Hindi tuloy ako nakakuha ng journals for 118. Bahala na si Ebsco.

Repost: Pasukan Blues

2009-02-23T23:26:00.000-08:00

Pasukan Blues.

Jun 2, '08 11:53 AM
for everyone

Tricia sent me this message 15 minutes ago:

Remember these?
naked men
brilliant students
brain-wacking terms
liberal culture
life long pride
rushing late night work
ugly eyebags
notorious professors
hell weeks
toxic liefestyle
constant lack of sleep
nosebled exams
heart stopping results
die hard frienship

... Yeah, pasukan na naman.

And I feel so unprepared! 11 units pa lang sa CRS - nice talaga, never akong binigyan ng 18 units. Tapos I dunno kung Bio 11 na ba ang kukunin ko or mag-susuper electives ako ngayon. Tapos wala pa akong PE. Kahit duckpin man lang, hindi ako nabigyan. Grrr. Wala pa akong Hapon 11. TBA pa ang prof ko sa Socio 101. Hay.

Anoher thing, sira si pishi matapos ko lang linisin. Promise, I did nothing! NILINIS ko lang. Poor me. Yeah, poor me. (Singit lang ako ngayon, thanks to Sharapova and Roland Gaross, uber busy sila sa panonood.) Kung kelan pasukan saka wala akong pishi. Tsk tsk. Kyng kelan tatadtarin ako sa paper ng 118? Oh C'mon, kelangang maayos ni pishi.

Tapos kelangan ng maging active sa mga orgs. hay. May event pa ang Ex LIbris na hindi rin naman ako aattend. Tapos sa Comlec, kelanan ng magserve, tapos sa red cross, kelangan ng mag review ng sfat and ert para maging full time member na.

Then I have to meet Marla. Uber laki ng kasalanan ko sa kanya. Dahil sa isang exam sa chem, di ako naka-attend ng debut niya. Bad Roxanne. Hay, feeling niya tuloy hindi na kami bff = bestfriend forever. Have to meet her before the semester becomes hectic again.

What else? Oh, uber lessen ang time sa pagpipishi which includes ragnarok of course. Hay. I will miss all my friends there, sila hubby, molfie, lorenz, mga kalaro sa pront, neko, mark, GM. Hay.

OH i forgot, tambak pa ako ng drama and animes na papanoorin at ibuburn. Gomen Gomen Ma-an. Tsk tsk. ^^

Leisure time is over. I Have to get back to work.

Repost: Psych Major ba talaga ako?

2009-02-23T23:25:00.001-08:00

Psych Major ba talaga ako?

Jan 11, '08 11:05 PM
for everyone

Eto na naman ako, hindi pa rin makapaniwala na Sikolihiya ang kursong kinukuha ko sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas.

Masaya naman sana. Kaso, hindi ko matanggap na sa natitira ko pang taon sa Unibersidad ay wala akong masyadong gagawin, gagawa lang naman ako ng sangkatutak na papel-na-thesis-na-ata-ng-ibang-course-dahil-sa-sobrang-hirap.

Sabi ko pa naman nung hayskul pa lang ako, "Basta, hindi ako kukuha ng course na mapapel masyado, ayoko yatang maging glue na dinidikitan ng papel".

Ngunit eto ako ngayon, nagsisimula ng ang kalbaryo ko sa tulong ng Psych 115.

But don't get me wrong, masaya sa Psych! Sobra! Kahit na maraming papel!
Kasi nandun ko natagpuan ang mga tunay kong kaibigan (Ayeekie),

tapos magagaling pa yung mga professor,

tapos feeling mo napaka-wellrounded person kasi may math ka, may chem ka, may physics ka, may bio ka, idagag mo pa ang social sciences na kailangan mong kunin, kumbaga, hindi lang siya science, may arts din (anlabo ko!),

tapos may Handog,
may PsycA,
may Sir Ton,
may Sir DelPi,
thrill na 150 kasi ________ vs _________ (hulaan niyo!),

yung likod ni Sir Luistro na nagpaalam na sakin matapos mapagpasyahan namin ni Tine na umupo sa sahig dahil 2 beses na kaming kamote sa kanyang mga surprise exam,

yung 30 minute break sa 115 dala ng kabaitan ni Ma'am Capulong at madalas kong makakuha ng 6.5/10 na score sa kanyang mga exercises at exercise 4 na hindi ko pa sinisimulan hanggang ngayon, kasalanan ng multiply! hahaha. :D

may updating, signing-up at adivising

may ate daisy at ma'am carol

si kuya roman

si kuya collins

si kuya magic

2nd floor ng phan na aming tambayan

malapit sa sunken na aming tambayan

malapit sa casaa

at madami pa!

hahaha, psych major nga talaga ako!

ay nakalimutan ko ang ebsco at spss! hehehehehe :D

Repost: Masakit ang ngipin ko.

2009-02-23T23:25:00.000-08:00

Masakit ang ngipin ko.

Nov 21, '07 8:00 AM
for everyone

Wah. Masakit talaga ang ngipin ko. Nakakainis.

Sa lahat, ito ang pinaka-ayoko. Kapag masakit kasi ang ngipin ko, feeling ko buong katawan ko masakit. Pero kahit masakit siya, hindi ako umiinom ng gamot, flanax man o ponstan. Ayoko kasi masanay na dumepende sa gamot. Mas gusto ko, ramdom ko yung sakit. Gusto ko nga pasakitin pa siya ng todo para alam ko kung paano ko siya titiisin. May kaibigan kasi ako na nasanay na laging umiinom ng gamot konting sakit lang ng ngipin niya. Ayun, kahit 500 mg ng ponstan, hindi na tumatalab.

Ang hilig ko kasi sa lollipop. Siguro dahil nagkaroon ako ng kalayaan na kumain nito. Nung bata pa kasi ako, bawal ang candy. Kaya pagtuntong ko ng grade 6, dun nagsimula ang lahat. Tinatago ko kay mama tapos yung una kong naging favorite na kendi ay yung ox ng coffee flavored. Iyon lang kasi ang tinda sa pinakamalapit na tindahan sa amin. Sa tuwing uutusan ako ni mama, titiyakin ko na bibili ako ng ox candy.

Ayaw ko rin na sumakit ang tiya hindi lang dahil sa pwede akong matae pero feeling ko, kapag masakit ang tiyan ko, nanghihina ako. Para akong sinuntok. Nung bata ako, may sarili akong panggamot sa sakit ng tiyan ko. Sabi ng kasambahay namin nun, kapag nilawayan mo ang hintuturo mo at nagdrowing ka ng krus sa tiyan mo gamit ang hintuturo mong may laway, tiyak mawawala ang sakit ng tiyan mo. Sinubukan ko iyon, tapos gumana! Pero, natuklasan ko nung 2nd year high school ako na hindi naman pala iyon totoo. Muntik na kasi akong matae nun. Salamat na lang sa imodium.

Masakit pa rin ang ngipin ko. At tiyak hindi ako makakatulog kaagad.Wah. Kelangan kong tiisin pa ng konti. Bukas, wala na ito. Sana.

Repost: T_T

2009-02-23T23:24:00.000-08:00

T_T	Oct 30, '07 9:16 AM for everyone

He's not worth the wait.

Antagal kong nag-antay sa wala...

still...
I'm waiting
Hoping.

Repost: Chinese

2009-02-23T23:23:00.001-08:00

Chinese

Oct 26, '07 5:15 AM
for everyone

I look even stressed during this sembreak compared nung may pasok pa due to many sleepless nights dahil sa panononood ng meteor garden.

Ironic kasi dati, hindi ko talaga siya ganun kagusto and I used to laugh at people na inaabangan pa rin ang meteor garden sa GMA7 kahit na it has been aired two times sa channel 2, pero ngayon, talagang hindi ako natutulog para lang matapos ko yung buong series. Haha, naadik na yata ako kay Dao Ming Su.

Ewan ko ba, pero pagkatapos kong manood ng isang Korean, Japanese or Taiwanese Drama, I tend to have a crush dun sa bidang lalaki. I'll crave for more information about him, tapos isesearch ko sa net, download his pictures, read threads and forums about him and then...mawawawala na lang.

Katulad nung kay Ryo... I still like him and he will forever remain as my ultimate crush with Jun pero parang medyo humupa (tama ba yung term?). Nakakainis nga na humupa siya kasi Ryo and Jun both serve as diversion... para hindi ko masyadong isipin ang realidad.

Tapos, I realized something... napatunayan ko na hindi naman ako talaga mahilig o nadala ng Asian Wave, yun bang gusto mo na lahat ng Koreans, Japanese and Taiwan since sila yung nagpasimula ng Asian Invasion sa Pilipinas. Napansin ko kasi na hindi ko gaano type yung culture ng mga Chinese...no offense pero yung language kasi...basta, hindi ko maexplain. Siguro mas gusto ko lang talaga ang mga Koreans and Japanese culture.

Ironic di ba? Kasi kahit hindi ako mukhang intsik, may lahi akong instik, 1/4 ata. Yung picture sa taas; certificate yun. Member kasi kami dati ng Ong's Associations. Lahat ng chinoy na may apelyidong Ong ay magkaka-org, to put it simply. Dati kasi hindi na active sina mama at mga kapatid niya. Tsaka they prefer males na maging active at magaling mag-Mandarin, akso yung tito ko na magaling mag-Mandarin ay nasa states na kaya ayun...naging dati.

Siguro, kung pumayag ako noong grade 3 ako na magtansfer sa isang Chinese school, marunong na ako siguro kahit papaano mag-Chinese. Natakot kasi ako nun eh, biruin mo, Grade 4 ako in English tapos biglang Kinder ako sa Chinese at ang magiging kaklase ko ay mga chikiting... umayaw ako.

Ayun. Kaya tuloy simpleng words lang ang kaya ko... tapos pagdating sa sulat, yung pangalan ko lang ang kaya ko, in Fookien pa... di ko alam sa Mandarin.

Pero hindi ko naman pinagsisihan... okay lang naman kahit hindi ako matutong mag-Chinese, priority ko talaga ang matuto ng Japanese at Korean.

At hindi ko pa tapos ang Meteor Garden. Sobrang haba talaga siya unlike Hana Yori Dango. At kung ikukumpara mo ang dalawang version na ito, may kanya-kanyang kagandahan at kapangitan, depende na lang sa taste mo.

Sige. sana matapos ko na ang MG... di bale, may nalalabi pang ilang araw bago mag-2nd sem.

Magraragnarok muna ako. :P

Repost :))

2009-02-23T23:23:00.000-08:00

:))	Oct 23, '07 3:50 PM for everyone

Been busy lately dahil sa scholarship. Magkakaroon kasi ng unity festival at kahit hindi ko naman gusto ay naisali ako sa sabayang pagbigkas, salamat sa kapatid ko. Sa gabi na nga lang ako nakakapag-net dahil sa practice. Huhu. Isang week din ng bakasyon ang kukuhanin nito sakin. Actually, bukas ang call time ay 9 am dahil mayroon daw trainor pero heto, gising pa ako.

Kakatapos ko lang magragnarok. Medyo naadik na ako, pero isang oras lang naman isang araw. Baka kasi magtampo si lapitapi (peram ng word Tine) kung papagurin ko siya. Yun din yung naging advice sa kin ni Christine.

Dahil sa paglilimita ng paggamit sa laptop, nalilimitahan din ang paggamit sa pishi (peram ulit). Medyo natutuwa ako kasi at least makakapagpahinga siya kahit sa konting panahon upang maghanda na sa isa na namang panibagong sem na tiyak na mapupuno ng mga papel na kailangang isumite.

Nagtataka din ako sa sarili ko kung bakit Tagalog ang post ko. Siguro ay dahil kakatapos ko lang basahin yung post ni Tine na Sien.

Medyo naiingit din ako dun sa president ng scholarship namin. Biruin mo, for interview na siya upang maging isang exchange student sa Korea. Astig talaga... makakakita na siya bng snow tapos makikita pa niya sa Hyun Bin. Wah. Gusto ko ring maging exchange student. T_T

Di ko na nakakausap si Tine, lalo na si Ernie. Tsk. Hindi kami nagkakaabutan sa ym. Si hamster naman, matatagalan pa bago magparamdam ulit iyon.

Alam kong wala ng direksyon ang sinusulat ko. Haha. Pagpasensiyahan niyo na lang. :P

Repost: Exhausted

2009-02-23T23:22:00.000-08:00

Exhausted

Sep 27, '07 12:30 PM
for everyone

I'm feel tired and sleepy while I'm typing this sentence. This week and the week coming are my hell weeks and I'm not planning to sleep this night - not even a minute. There are really lots of things to do. I'm just taking a break that I've decided to write down this exhaustion eating the every piece of me.

I received an e-mail from my professor in cwts. The message really bothered me a lot since it was a warning for all of his students. This is what the email says:

The presentation of your CWTS output is scheduled this wednesday
October 3, 2007 at PH 400 (not PH 207).  LCD projector is provided, you can
just bring your laptops with you.  Each group is given a very short
10-minute period to present the data you have collected, explaining what
your group intends to do for the UP Community's Centennial Celebration
next year.  Be brief, make it short, but fun and entertaining.

I'll be checking attendance at 9:30, presentations starts at 9:45 am.  

Students who were absent September 26 AND October 3 will get a FAILING
grade.  

Students who are absent October 3 will get a grade of INC.  You have no
excuse, Wednesday 9-12 is our CWTS schedule.  

I'll be checking your blogs Monday midnight.  Students with incomplete
blog entries will get a grade of INC.

Inactive, non-participating group members should be reported to me
immediately.


Thank you.

Blood rushed over my head after I read the e-mail.

I wasn't able to come to class last Sept. 26 because my body gave due to lack of sleep. That class is from 9am-12pm, I woke up at 11am.

But I think my blog posts are complete, that is if he hasn't asked us to reflect on something new.

I'm cooperative, I think since the concept plates of our group where MY idea. It's just that I wasn't able to come to class last Sept. 26 (just reiterating) that I haven't had the chance to let my professor knew the hard work I gave on coming up with that concept plates. But I'm not worried; I think my group mates are honest enough not to take credit of other's work... and yet I'm not sure with this. I barely know them and only have the time to talk to them whenever we have to do something as a group.

I'll definitely go to class on Oct. 3, since its the only chance I have. But even if I didn't come across this email, I'll still come. I hate being absent; makes me neurotic of thinking too much of what I missed and the consequences of missing what I missed.

What if I get a grade of INC? Or worst failed?!

WHOA... failing CWTS, it's not even a GE, not even a major.

So right now, instead of making the papers I have for my majors and ge classes, I decided to put my time on creating the plates... just to be able to assure myself that I have done something, and I'm really doing what the subject requires. To stop myself from worrying of failing a cwts class.

I've already told mom the situation I'm in... and she got angry since it's only a cwts class that I'm about to fail. Sorry, can't stop of being pessimistic.

I hope I'll be able to survive this hell week and the coming weeks

I hope I'll see "PASSED" on my classcard in CWTS.

Wish me luck.

Currently listening to: Rolling Star - Yui
Currently reading: "Kule
Currently feeling: worried

Repost: Yet Again

2009-02-23T23:21:00.000-08:00

Yet Again.

Sep 23, '07 2:06 PM
for everyone

Yet again, I'm torn. I'm always torn, I think! I'm having a hard time to decide over things that are crucial in my life.

Yet again, I feel weak. Weak in the sense that it seems I really don't excel in something, like in academics, sports and entertainment (singing, dancing, drawing, writing). I'm such a L-O-S-E-R, a mere average person who cannot even solve simple math problems and was told by her professor on time "Review your grade one arithmetic!".

Yet again, I feel bad, insecure, unhappy and miserable about myself.

Yet again, I miss him, a LOT. I wish I can see him and talk to him, tell him how I really feel. Tell him how sorry I am.

Yet again, I'm bombarded with regrets and what ifs.
Like I wish I am like this or that...
Like "what if I chose to live my life in a different way?"

Yet again, I feel alone. No one can really understand how I feel.

Repost: :P

2009-02-23T23:20:00.000-08:00

:P	Sep 21, '07 3:43 PM for everyone

I must say this: I'm sorry. With all honesty, I can't be myself when I'm with you.

Ngayon ko lang ito naramdaman.

Nakakalungkot na isipin na hindi mo matanggap kung sino ako.

There are many rules that restricts my freedom and individuality.

There are times na I can't express myself.

Dahil ba sa bawal?

Maybe.

Oo!

Sinabi mo bawal "huwag ganito, huwag ganyan".

Nashock nga ako eh. Hindi na lang ako kumibo.

Pero nasaktan talaga ako.

And I'm still hurt.

Ipinamumukha mo sa aking mahina ako

At magaling ka.

Fine!

Aminado naman ako eh.

Hindi ako tulad mo, hindi ako tulad ng sinumang tao sa mundo.

Ako si Roxanne!

Hindi mo sigurong kayang tanggapin

aking pagkatao.

Puro na lang kahinaan ang nakikita mo sa akin.

Puro uling.

Tama na!

Mabuti pa'y ako'y lumisan na

At itigil ang kahibangang ito.

Repost: Farewell

2009-02-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

Farewell.

Sep 14, '07 12:19 PM
for everyone

Left out. That's what I feel.

I'm not like you, not in a thousand ways

I tried to find similarties

pero wala talaga.

Maybe, this all damn thing is just an illusion.

Gumagawa ako ng pelikula kung saan bida ako.

It started really good
I even thought this will stay forever

pero hindi pala

kasi

kasi

hindi ako kasingaling mo.

Napagod na rin ako.

Napagod ang bida
Napagod ang kontrabida
Napagod ang direktor
Napagod ang writer
Napagod ang producer

Bakit ka napagod?

Siguro dahil sa akin.

Mediocre? That's the best word you SHOULD use to describe a LOSER like me.

it may be hard to accept
But I think, the time has already come

para gumawa ka nang mas magandang pelikula

Films that will bring you an award as prestigious as Cannes

para hindi ka pulutin sa kangkunan

tulad ng kinasapitan ko.

Repost: What your name means (trip lang!)

2009-02-23T23:18:00.000-08:00

What your name means (trip lang!)

Aug 26, '07 3:22 PM
for everyone

You entered: Roxanne Therese Ong Delay

There are 22 letters in your name.
Those 22 letters total to 110
There are 9 vowels and 13 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Persian	Female	Variant of Roxana: Dawn; bright.
French	Female	Dawn.

Your number is: 2

The characteristics of #2 are: Cooperation, adaptability, consideration of others, partnering, mediating.

The expression or destiny for #2:
A number 2 Expression gives you the tools to work very well with other people. Your destiny is in the role of the mediator and the peacemaker. In many ways you are dependent on others and seem to function best in a partnership or in some form of group activity. Modesty runs deep in your nature, and you can work comfortably without recognition of your accomplishments. Often, others get credit for your ideas, and this is of little real concern to your since you are such a willing team player. As you grow in this direction, you become sensitive to the feelings of others, you are ever diplomatic in handling complicated situations. Cooperative, courteous, and considerate, you have the capacity to become an outstanding facilitator. You know how to organize and handle people. You are a good detail person because you rarely overlook anything. Tactful and friendly, nearly everyone likes you.

The negative 2 personality can be over-sensitive and easily hurt. Too much of this number in your makeup can make you very shy and uncertain. Sometimes the excessive 2 energies makes one apathetic and somewhat indifferent to the job at hand; the ability to handle details is hampered in these cases.

Your Soul Urge number is: 3

A Soul Urge number of 3 means:
With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends. You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing. In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.

You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance.

The 3 Soul Urge gives intuitive insight, thus, very high creative and inspirational tendencies. The truly outstanding trait shown by the 3 Soul Urge is that of self-expression, regardless of the field of endeavor.

On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers. Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn't appreciate having these pointed out.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

Credits to chronicle11 since I discovered this through her site.

Anyway, I find this half accurate. Haha. :P

http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

Repost: Sad. Sad.

2009-02-23T23:17:00.000-08:00

Sad. Sad.

Aug 21, '07 6:58 PM
for everyone

Sad.

Hindi ako makakapunta sa final interview ng Ex Libris

I've sprained my ankle; I can't even walk properly.

And my mom become a watchdog - worst than a real one. She's guarding my every move.

Hindi ako pinayagang pumunta ng UP. I have to rest daw kasi.

The interview is the last process na kailangan for me to become a member.

Sayang lahat ng efforts ko. :(

Repost: Broken

2009-02-23T23:16:00.001-08:00

Broken

Aug 14, '07 10:29 AM
for everyone

Was it over?

Yes it was, for him.

But not for me.

Yes, it wasn't over yet. It just can't be. I still have feelings for him. I still love him.

Really, i feel so dissapointed, so sad when he didn't even bother to greet me happy birthday last July.

Nakalimutan ba niya o sadyang kinalimutan niya?

I really don't know.

Gusto ko siyang makita, makausap.

Does he feel the same way?

Anong gagawin ko?

Come to think of it, there is really nothing to be done.

I'm forever out of his life.

Repost: Lutang nung Mps 10

2009-02-23T23:16:00.000-08:00

Lutang noong mps10

Aug 13, '07 10:17 AM
for everyone

Kelan ko ba magagawa ang gusto kong gawin? Pero teka, ano ba talaga ang gusto kong gawin?
Gusto ko ba talagang mabuhay sa mundo? Paano ba mamatay nang walang nararamdamang sakit?
Lawyer, ambassador, piloto - akala ko, ito na ang "ultimate goal" na dapat kong maabot.
Hindi ba talaga? O yun ba talaga?

Ang gulo.

Saan, kailan, paano ko ba mahahanap ang aking sarili...ang sarili ko na makikita kong masaya - kuntento...walang alinlangan.

Frustrated ba ako o sadyang frustrating lang ang buhay ko? Sinasadya ko bang maging ganito o dahil sa mundong ginagalawan ko?

Lagi na lang ako...bakit ako? Siguro dapat mawala na ako sa lupang ibabaw, maging desparacidos - mawala ng parang bula.

Hanapin mo kaya ako?

(ginawa ng manunulat sa gitna ng kanyang klase na malikhaing pagsulat 10. Pasensiya kung medyo walang coherence ang sentence.)

Repost: Realizations

2009-02-23T23:15:00.000-08:00

Realizations...

Jul 12, '07 10:18 AM
for everyone

I've come to realize something. There's no need for time machine; no need to go desperately back in the past. No need to regret things that had happened and wish a for a different ending.

Regrets wouldn't change a thing or two. Everything in the past had happened for a reason only the Creator knows. Maybe it's to teach me different important things in life. And if it were not for those things, I may not be the person I am right now.

Now, I'm quite contented with my life, I think. I like the way I am right now. I have friends whom I know are all true. Acquaintances to adds spice to my happy life; family to always support and encourage to just fight and go on; crushes for the added "kilig" factor; idols to admire and a dog to play with. :P

I feel that every each day that passes by, I become a better person, ready to take new challenges.

Well, I just hope I will never commit those mistakes again. Haha, maybe, I'll become less serious, avoid acting hastily and just enjoy things life has to offer and have fun.

Repost: Regrets

2009-02-23T23:14:00.001-08:00

Regrets.

Jul 9, '07 6:24 AM
for everyone

I have a lot of regrets, but the one I regretted the most was not being able to enjoy HS days

I should have opted to enjoy my high school days. Back then, I was so serious, a grade conscious students who has to be at her best all the time. I forgot to be myself as I have to be different to live up by the expectations by the people that surround me. I was so selfish! I only focused on myself, eventually turning myself into an apathetic robot.

In doing so, I know I hurt so many people. I wasn't aware that I lost important friends, even turning some into enemies. I was so damn righteous and doesn't even have the idea that the word FUN exists. A single violation made by my friend, I will immediately reprimand them for their actions. This friend will then turn into a mere acquaintance.

I know, my batch remembered me as someone unapproachable, unreachable and serious. I want them to remember the real me, reachable, approachable, fun; someone you can talk to with anything under the sun. I want them to remember me as a person not because of the things made me famous in the campus; I want them to remember me as someone average, yet with a big heart.

Where can I buy a cheap time machine? I desperately need one.

I want to go back in time so badly.

Now? I feel bored studying. Sawa na ako! I feel that it's the only thing I've been doing in my life. I want to do something new. Having said that, I really don't know if I will still consider on pursuing a career in law. Haha, I don't think I can survive. I'm also starting to doubt my capabilities.

Repost: What a tiring day!

2009-02-23T23:14:00.000-08:00

What a Day!

Jul 4, '07 3:37 PM
for everyone

What a tiring day! Sobra!

Usually, a Wednesday is a day where you really have nothing to do. Though I have classes during Wednesday, they're not heavy academically (CWTS and Sports Climbing). But this Wednesday, July 4, 2007 was really a different one. So many things had transpired that though it made me quite exhausted at the end of the day, it gave me an inspiration to post a blog regarding this day. (Haha, may test pa ako sa Psych 150 bukas... Tsk tsk, kakatamad magreview!)

Hmm... First thing I did was to attend my CWTS class. Sobrang kakaiba ang CWTS ngayong araw na ito. Usually, the students were dismissed 30 minutes/ 1 hour earlier, pero ngayon, we were dismissed past 12:30! By the way, schedule of CWTS is every Wednesday, 9 am to 12 pm (see? how late we were dismissed! :P)

The lecture was given by Prof. Quilop from the department of Political Science. He graduated as the 2nd summa cum laude of my beloved college, CSSP kaya ayun... sobrang bigat ng discussion and medyo may pagkastrict din siya. Actually, andami niyang pinahiyang students who were doing things not related sa class. In a form of a joke siya pero in front of 200 students? Mapapahiya ka nga naman talaga. Nakakatawa kasi ituturo ka pa niya and he would guess what exactly you are doing. Ang mga madalas napansin ay yung mga lovers na *you know* (hahaha :P) nilalanggam na. Meron din yung mga nagtetext o yung isa na inaantok. He even asked kung bakit inaantok yung isang student and the student gave a valid reason naman, galing kasi daw ng Malaysia so medyo pagod pa. :P

Then naglunch kami ni Lianne sa Casaa. Ay oo nga pala, nakita ko si Sir Xiao at Rani. Hehe... Miss ko na yung pagtambay ko sa room ni Sir. :P

After having our lunch, LIanne and I departed in separate ways, kasama niya si Jeanne nagpunta sa CSWCD para naman sa CWTS nila. As for me, I headed straight to the library para magreview. Haha, actually, hindi rin ako nakapagreview... nagbasa lang ako ng diyaro at nagpahangin sa lib. :))

After reading almost ALL newspaper available to read and getting enough air from the large electric fan beside me, I decided na magpunta na sa Film Center. We were required in KAS 2 to watch the Gawad Plaridel Awarding Ceremony.

The Gawad Plaridel award started 4 years ago and Eugenia Apostol was the first awardee, followed by Gov. Vilma Santos, Tiya Dely and Cheche Lazaro, who is the recipient of the award this year. According to the souvenir program
"Ang karangalang ito ay ibinibigay ng UP sa mga katatangi-tanging praktisiyoner ng midya" :P

U didn't expect that few big names will attend the ceremony. I saw siyempre CheChe Lazaro. Maria Nessa from ABSCBN was also there. Tiya Dely, Bernadette Sembrano etc. Haha... Nandun din si Pres. Roman and Chancellor Cao. And how could I forget Ms. Ana Theresa Licaros? A summa cum laude graduate from College Mass Communication who is now taking up law and represented the Philippines in the last Ms. Universe Pageant. What a combination of beauty and brain!

Sobrang dami ng tao. At first, Lianne and I had no choice but to stand sa likod but luck came! We were ushered to RESERVE seats which weren't occupied! Yippee! Nasa likod kami nung una then instant mega HARAP!!! Haha, nasa likod kami nung mga "big people" :P

Natapos ung program bandang 3:50 pm. Gusto ko pa sanang magpa-autograph kay Ms. Che Che Lazaro or to any other personality who were there kaso mission impossible... Ang hirap! Pinaligiran siya ng mga "importanteng tao rin". Haha! Sino ba naman ako para maki-join sa kanila. :P

Anyway... tambay muna kami ni Lianne sa sunken. Nakita namin si Trina!!! Yippe! Classmate namin sa review classes! Then dumating yung Weji, oooopssss, Jammin then followed by Ernest. Sabay-sabay na rin kaming pumunta ng UP theater for the UP Pep rally ng 6:24, the program will start according to our tickets ng 7. Required kasi ako sa PE namin. Wala akong PE ngayon so as to give students time to watch the Pep rally.

Pagdating sa theater, nakita namin si Faye. Di muna kami pumasok kasi walang kasama si Faye. Inantay namin yung friend niya. Fast ForwARD! Dumating yung friend niya ang voila! Nasa loob na kami... past 7:30 na siya nag-start.

OKay naman... mejo sablay lang yung ibang performance. Hehe, what could you expect nga naman? Varsity sila so yung iba lang ang biniyayaan din ng talento sa larangan ng entertainment. Yung opening, maganda... pero yung sumunod, di ko na makita yung essence nung program.

Then tumawag si Mama... Hanggang 10 lang daw yung Burgoo. So dapat umalis kami sa UP ng 8:45... di na namin tatapusin yung PEP rally. Hahaha. Birthday kasi ni Mama... 50 na sila ni Tita! Ehehe.. kaya may onting celebration.

Mega Taxi kami ni Lianne papuntang Gateway... :P Ayun.. Masarap yung food. :P Tapos nakakatawa kasi kinantahan pa ng mga waiter and waitresses sina Mama at Tita ng Happy Birthday with matching free Ice cream cake! Guess who ate the Ice cream cake? Walang iba kundi kami ni Lianne.. Ahahaha...

After stuffing so much food in our stomach that we can't hardly even breath sa kabusugan! Bloated talaga! So may contest ng paliitan ng stomach!... Ahahaha.

Then we headed home... :P Nanood muna ako ng news bago matulog... The nagising ng 2 para magreview na sa Psych 150... kaso nakakatamad talaga, kaya eto ako.. :P

Hay.. I feel sleepy... :P Yawn! Yawn! Yawn!

The End. :P

What a Day!

Jul 4, '07 3:37 PM
for everyone

What a tiring day! Sobra!

Then naglunch kami ni Lianne sa Casaa. Ay oo nga pala, nakita ko si Sir Xiao at Rani. Hehe... Miss ko na yung pagtambay ko sa room ni Sir. :P

After stuffing so much food in our stomach that we can't hardly even breath sa kabusugan! Bloated talaga! So may contest ng paliitan ng stomach!... Ahahaha.

Then we headed home... :P Nanood muna ako ng news bago matulog... The nagising ng 2 para magreview na sa Psych 150... kaso nakakatamad talaga, kaya eto ako.. :P

Hay.. I feel sleepy... :P Yawn! Yawn! Yawn!

The End. :P

A visit to a one-of-a-kind volunteer organization.

2007-08-02T10:10:00.000-07:00

VSO Bahaginan

Share with them
not just your skills & resources
but also your
hopes and dreams.

Ms. Anna Marie Dizon of VSO Bahaginan was so kind to accommodate us even though there was quite a problem with our appointment. :P

After a long series of finding a volunteer organization we can interview, VSO Bahaginan came into rescue! Credits to my group mates! Go Group 5!

After, let's get into serious stuff...

VSO Bahaginan - not just a typical volunteer organization that render services to a community. Its more than that. It render service in the means of helping other volunteer organization which involve the delivering of volunteers. VSO Bahaginan is a developmental organization committed to fighting global poverty and disadvantage through a wide range of volunteer development programs. Its UK-based organization works through, together with the volunteers, sending them to more than 30 countries in the developing worlds such as Asia, Africa, the Balkans, the Pacific and the Caribbean.

It has major recruitment bases found in the Philippines, Canada which is the first recruitment base, UK, Kenya, India which right now hasn't reach the federation status member yet and lastly, Ireland.
VSO Bahaginan has 3 major volunteering programs:

1. International Volunteering Program.
VSO Bahaginan recruits skilled volunteers with professional qualifications and experience from a range of disciplines from everywhere in the Philippines to live and work in local communities, sharing skills and changing lives.

"Some people might say why bother to help others abroad when millions of disadvantage Filipinos need all the assistance they can get? Well, if every society waited to "get everything together" before reaching out, the world would be truly a mess! the wonderful things about VSO work is that it breaks down the borders in the collective consciousness. No more 'us' and 'them', we're all in it together.

- VSO Pamphlet

2. KABAHAGI - National Volunteering Program.
VSO Bahaginan supports the promotion of local or national volunteering by way of partnerships with voluntary and volunteer-involving organizations in a range of activities that would support and promote the mobilization and strengthening of local capacities. We encourage active global citizenship that contributes to the development of local communities through volunteering.

3. Youth Volunteering
VSO Bahaginan recognizes the role of the youth in nation building. We offer young people a chance to make a real difference to community projects in the Philippines and the UK through the Global Xchange Programme.

* Among all the programs, this has the most competitive application due to limited slots.
*Recruits youth ages 15-25
*Short volunteering program without possesing any professional qualification
*Volunteer work will be consisted of 3 months Volunteer work in Mindanao
3 months in UK. ---> Even a developed country has pockets pf poverty
"No matter where you are, poverty exists, in different context".
*Whatever skills will be harnessed.

Accomplishments of VSO
there is really more than the list!

~Volunteers area awarded by different governments recognizing the invaluable assistance they provided.
~Most Volunteers after coming back finds themselves more valuable and chose 80% of them to become International Development Workers.
~Volunteers became advocacy officers dealing with missing persons, peace builders, and project officers of different organizations addressing poverty reduction.
~Annually, they send 100 Filipino Volunteers on over 34 developing countries.

"Volunteerism has different reasons and motivation. It a way of giving a part of yourself such as dedication, time, skills, personal experiences and not just things in excess. You do it because of Altruism, out of the kindness in your heart. And at the end, you realize that you've gain a lot more from the learning".

-Ana Maria Dizon
Recruitment Staff

Learning? It's within yourself, you realize that you can make a difference because of your national curiosity of people and by contributing to global understanding of issues.

You become more optimistic since you have been exposed different realities unimaginable.

"Better becoming one less person than nobody knowing"

Commnity Profiling

2007-08-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

This lecture was different from the others; it gives you the hint that play is over and let's get to the serious business.

Sir Deocariza discussed community profiling. A preparation to all CWTS students before we embark on the journey of our own, to a community assigned to us.

It is not easy to go into a community and try to give them your service without the proper knowlegde of the said community.It involves a lot of planning. There are several things to be considered first:

What kind of service the community needs...

Give them a fish... they will eat the fish for a day
Teach them to fish, they will fish for a lifetime.

Their realities is different from yours.
What you think they need isn't what actually they need.

This where Community Profiling comes in.

Community Profiling is an inventory of information of the key features, needs and resources of a community.

This is very important because it gives you a better understanding of the community. It eventually helps you decide what projects are suitable for a certain community we are to render.

Community profiling is a rigorous process and involves a lot of steps to be taken.

1. Organization and Planning
2.Data Collection
3. Data Processing and Presentation

It would be much easier if a community already has an existing profile since you just have to update them. But take note, only few communities have the budget to do a community profiling, so most of the communities don't have their profiles which means one thing, one has to start in scratch.

It easy as said but far hard when you are actually doing a community profiling. A lot of issues and problems and arises and there are a lot of things to be careful about especially when it comes to ethical issues.

But at the end, only one things is important: Being able to render service and at the same time learning from it as well.

And I'm excited. :P

Personal Growth and Social Interactions

2007-07-13T22:50:00.000-07:00

Dr. Aurora Corpuz Mendoza was the speaker for this lecture. She came from the department of Psychology (Yey!) specializing on Industrial organization.

On her study, she found out that work values on generations changes. There is time lag of 30-60 years before shift in values occurs. Therefore, there is a slow and steady change in the character of the society.

There are also different dimensions of work values according to Buchholz shown in the lecture. These dimension of work differs from one another in the sense of measuring success of one's individual in a particular work; these are the ff:

1. The Protestant Work Ethic which says that success is directly related to effort measured by accumulated wealth.

2. Organizational Belief System which a very Japanese belief; success is not related to effort and accomplishment, rather, success is directly linked to one's ability to conform and adapt to the norms of the company.

3. Humanistic. Well, the title says it all. Success is measured in terms of human growth and development on the job rather than work output.

4. Marxist related tells us that work is basic to human fulfillment since through this, people create their world and identity.

5. Leisure Ethic tells us really a different story since in this dimension, work has no meaning in itself and will only become meaningful in how it provides leisure to the successful persons.

Today, work values tend to shy away form work ethics to humanistic value. Likewise, religion, marital status and employment poses great impact to an individual compared in the past. Much also of breach of contract happens. What contract? The Psychological Contract between the employee and the employer. This contract is the expectation of the employer of the employee and vice versa. In pursuing a job, the no. 1 in the last in today's generation is the challenge. Well, in this, I beg to disagree. Is the reason of people opting to work in a call center is that they find challenge answering phone calls? I don't think so.

Difference of career from Job. I never realized how different were these two from each other until I attended this lecture. Career is dynamic; continuous incremental development. If one pursues a career in a particular field, he/she plans to be an expert in his/her chosen field and an ascent in hierarchy occurs. On the other hand, job is static period.

In selecting a job, often the HR people uses the Person occupation fit. But today, what seen as a more suitable process is the process approach - more on the type of organization than the type of occupation.

Satisfy vs optimize

"Look for best choices than satisfactory choices"

"The irony/paradoxes about it is that we want to focus on personal growth but we then chooses job without it".

What then applies to me for me?

I think I believe in the combination of the humanistic value, leisure ethic, Marxist related and protestant work ethic. In the future, I want a job where I will be able to create a conducive world for my personal growth and fulfillment and have a time for rest and relaxation.

That's why I want to become a lawyer/ diplomat/ ambassador.

I don't want to end up working in a call center.

Reflection: Civic Duties and Responsibilities

2007-07-08T00:59:00.000-07:00

"Kapag tinanong ka kung ano ka" ---> TAO. "Di mo naman sasabihing "PILIPINO".

Nationalism and Citizenship in the Age of Globalization was the title of Prof. Raymond Quilop's Lecture.

He first pointed out the difference of Nationalism and Citizenship.

Citizenship: In the form of paper e.g. passport, birth certificate etc.

Nationalism? Definitely much more important, especially in the context of the globalized world. Forces of globalization enhances or diminishes sense of NATIONALISM.

He then conceptualize the word Nationalism. This is where nation and states comes in.
He said that nation and state when combined forms the nation state which is the political and social unit around the world this time.

State is the external manifestation of the government; its an abstract concept. On the other hand, nation is the imagined political community.

State?Mahirap patayin!
Government? Madaling Palitan!

In the Philippines, it was very unfortunate of us since State was first established. Hence, the sense of being a Filipino has been imposed outside. We didn't chose to be a "Filipino".
That's why symbols are important! It attempts to homogenized Philippine Society. These are imposed and cultivated by the government so as to enhance the feeling of nationalism.

But national symbol practically fail to evoke the sense of nationalism.

"Naiiyak ka ba kapag naririnig mo ang Lupang Hinirang?"

"Hindi porke't nagtatagalog ka ay Pilipino ka na."

What does this exactly mean? Nationalism comes inside of us. It's not what we see externally but what deep inside our hearts. We just feel it like faith, a very powerful sentiment.

National Symbols? For me they are not effective. I don't feel patriotic every time I eat mangga or when I grill a bangus.

We should start loving our country! Instead of thinking where to migrate after college graduation, we should instead devote our time of giving service to our countrymen.

"Kung ano ang kinuha sa Bayan, ibalik sa Bayan! -------> Mam Gaying!

So there! :P

Reflection: Volunteerism

2007-07-08T00:32:00.000-07:00

Service learning focused on Education was the main topic discussed by Prof. Nestor Castro. Basically, he explain how learning can be place in the context of volunteerism where students will be able to validate concepts and theories learned in class to real-life situations and at the same time directly responding to people's need. In this way, students can learn from the people of the community as the same time as people of the community will learn from the students.

But, there are severals things to be considered first before embarking on the learning experience like the ethical consideration, safety and welfare not just of the students and faculty giving service but also of the community and financial costs.

Prof. Castro also showed as the past CSSP CWTS field projects. He pointed out that some areas may not be as effective unlike the other areas since these areas are already used to having students on their community.

"Sana'y na sa mga estudyante. Minsan pa nga , sila na ang nagtatanong kung hindi ba kayo gagamit ng random sampling technique".

We should then carefully plan out the activities and select a community wherein service will be most effective!

Service Starts when? NOW!

So there! :P

Reflection: Philippine Society and Culture

2007-07-07T23:46:00.000-07:00

Culture - a very banal word that is commonly define "as the complex whole which include knowledge, belief, arts, moral, law, customs and any other capabilities and habits acquired by man as a members of society". (E. Taylor)

I can't believe that this was the primitive definition of culture. And saying that this is primitive, it doesn't apply to the current context of today's society. It was used by Europeans so as to discriminate non-European countries as primitive that yet has to be civilized.

In the past, it was believe that culture is Homogenous Static. Culture will not change unless conquered by the European. ----------> not true!

Culture is anything that is related to Human Beings. Human beings are dynamic, not static. Culture then changes and develops.

Not only those individuals whose acts doesn't belongs to what is considered as the "norms" of society. Everyone has their own culture, even those belonging to a single country.

In the Philippines, being an archipelago with 7,107 islands, 171 languages and at least 106 ethnic groups where the values/culture of the Filipino Time, utang na loob, bahala and bayanihan can be found BUT it doesn't necessarily means that is applies to everyone (culture logics). This is where multiple realities comes in. We may live in the same country, same region, same city, same baranggay and yet we have different perspectives, beliefs and experiences. It depends on the meaning systems (example given was money) and the values systems (what you value the most).

Like the example given by Prof. Santos,
"Maling sabihin na pambansang ________" ---> it doesn't apply to everyone. "Iba- iba ang realidad ng isang lugar".

Likewise, culture is a "naturalized" knowledge". You don't accept it because you agree with it but the acceptance comes naturally in you. Hence, culture is then preserve in this manner.

In line with the service projects "not what you think they need but what they need should be applied. Careful evalutation and study first should be done before embarking on a particular service project since it may not cater to the needs of the people living in a certain community.

So there! :P

Expectations!

2007-07-07T22:17:00.000-07:00

Expectation? First, I really hope that this class would be oh so much fun! Definitely FUN FUN FUN!!!

Okay, let's go to the serious stuff.

I really expect that I will learn everything that has to be learn in the four walls of PH 400. The concepts and methods of community service through service learning for the betterment of the current situation of our less fortunate kababayans. It's a sort of a preparation before going out in the field and interacting with the people.

It's not just about being a requirement generally for sophomore students that's why I'm in this class. I think this is the chance to be able to give out to the country the little service I can provide being an Iskolar ng Bayan. I hope it will serve as an outlet of not just service, but also where us students will be able to grow our self awareness, volunterism, citezenship and the most importantly, grow as a better individual.

So there! :P

Experience in Community Service

2007-07-07T01:37:00.000-07:00

I came from a Catholic High school and because of that, I've experience quite a number of community service.

Back in high school, I can still vividly remember when we were asked to interact with the inmates of the Bilibid Prison - Medium Security. It was an eye opening experience since not everyone inside really deserves to be imprisoned. Some are imprisoned not because they committed a crime but because their resources failed to rescue them from eternal damnation.

We also went to a Drug Rehabilitation Center where my classmates and I received lots of important things to ponder and advices so as to avoid taking the wrong path and end up like them.

Likewise, we are asked to bring relief goods every first Friday mass of the first Friday of the month.

Every December, my high school invites children from the Kuya Foundation. Being a member the Student Council, we were the ones assigned on the preparation of the program and the tokens to be given away.

We also had a Clean Up Drive wherein the whole batch were asked to clean around the vicinity of the school. Though it was really tiring since we started 12 noon, still, it was definitely fun!

I am also quite active in my parish. Last summer, my parish held a Medical and Dental Mission and I participated by becoming an assistant. :P

Likewise, I have participated in a Literacy Training sponsored my org outside UP.

So there! :P

Hate Page!

2007-07-07T00:59:00.000-07:00

I HATE all of these:

Social Stratification

Ipod - when it became a symbol of social status

Chucks - when it became a symbol of social status

spiders
Envy
Blood

Cybersex

Kris Aquino

Ghosts

Kikay

Smoking

Drugs
Flirt

Hatred
Pretend

Math

Rain
Being Alone

So there! :P

Favorite Things!

2007-07-07T00:06:00.000-07:00

I LOVE all of these:

Airplanes! I once dreamed becoming a pilot.

CSI Las Vegas and New york are the best!

Flip flops

Yeah! Isaw!

Chocolates! They're the best whenever you feel stressed

Pink! (But I'm not girly!)

Friendster! Whenever I have a time.

Utada Hikaru! Can't get enough of her music.

Kdramas espcially My Sassy Girl ChunHyang

Maria Sharapova! I want to be like her!

California Maki

Sleeping

Reading Books

Jun Mastumoto! So hot and goegeous!

UP!!! Need I say more?

Twin Sister Lianne!

c2 Lemon for Refreshments

My dog, Spot

So there! :P

Personal Description!

2007-07-06T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hey There!

Hi Everyone! I'm Roxanne Therese Ong Delay, 633 or Xanne for short.

Well, why 633? In Japanese, my name Roxanne is translated to "Rokusan-san". Fotunately, roku in Japanese means 6 and san means 3, so there. It's a name given by my closest friends in UP.

I am a 2nd year BA Psychology Major. Why Psychology? I heard it's a good pre-law course. Obviously, I want to become a lawyer since I was kid. But actually, I'm starting to doubt about my "lawyer" capabilities. I'm starting to like diplomacy that's why I'm taking Political Science Electives. Thank God my program has a lot of electives!

Anyway, I turned 18 last July 6. And guess what? I didn't celebrate that day alone. You see, I was blessed to have a twin sister! We used to look the same. But now, we do not look like twins at all (as you can see in the picture). It was my fault anyway, I decided to sport a short hair. Then she decided to have bangs.

We are definitely very close and probably share the same wavelength. Well, she's also the reason why this blog is entitled as "individual's shadow" since I consider myself as the shadow of my twin. And actually, my mom has a twin sister too making ours as a rare case!

She's also studying in UP Diliman, taking up Community Nutrition.

So there!